Call me....SLING SHOT!

Weird blog title huh? Well you might as well call me that. Here I sit, blogging with my arm in what I call a sling. I refused the doctor yesterday when offered a sling from the doctor's office. She gave me the option of using a scarf and making one myself for fashion purposes if I wanted LOL. I chose to be fashionable..pfft. So no scarf used here, and dont laugh because Im fashionably crippled now. Ive used an i'e and NO I dont look ghetto, I know what you're thinking!

So Im sure you wanna know WHY Im in a sling. The answer is simple, I have tendonitis in my left elbow from softball and its insanely excruciating. I was told I cant play ball for 4-6 weeks to let it heal, was offered physical therapy, and WONDERFUL pain meds. I took the pain meds with no hesitation. So, I wont be playing ball for a while and if you know me, Im super sad about it, softball is everything, well not everything, but you know what I mean. I LOVE SOFTBALL and to not be able to play for a while kills me.

On a side note my mom told me Im a wuss and thinks I should still play. I love her to pieces but it really hurt my feelings when I told her coming home from the doctor's yesterday that Im in real pain and I was told not to play and her reply was (with attitude if you know my mother), "so I guess that means you're done with softball basicall right?!?!?" I was floored! She's always been that way though, not comforting at all unless Im in the hospital. Of all things though, she called me a wuss because I wont play ball? WOW! She's permanently damaged her shoulder and arm because she played through the pain and I told her I have nothing to prove by playing injured. Id rather take a month off to heal and be able to play the rest of my life than to play injured and risk never being able to play again. Im still hurt but I guess I shouldnt be surprised, thats my mom and I know her well enough to know that she loves me but will never change.

By the way, Bruce has been helping me get dressed and all that jazz, he even has put up my hair for me for work. Needless to say its frizzy and looks like Ive been lounging around at home all day but he tried and its not like I can really fix it lol! I cant wear makeup either, well I can but no eyeliner...dag nabbit! So I guess I have to look natural, not like I wear tons of makeup anyway but you know what I mean...I can only have mascara and fix my eyebrows. I feel naked..... :(

Alright thats all I got for now, secretly hoping that my vicodin pops up in my purse somehow but drats...I left it at home.

Love you all!

Moving OUT and Moving ON

Im assuming you are assuming this post is about me finally moving out...NEGATIVE, I wish! Okay so I just thought Id quickly chit chat about the whole moving out situation that Ive been trying to accomplish for the past 65432165401 years, give or take a year or two. So YES, I live with my mother BUT I like to consider it as a co-habitation effort for convenience. So what Im 30 years old still living with my mother, pfft like thats not weird..(Eeeek!). I pay rent and all utilities so its not like Im freeloading but still the thought that Im at home still weighs heavily on me and stresses me out. If you have noticed in one of my previous posts I discuss the horrible act of "envying" someone..*gag*. Sad but true that concept comes into mind when I think about moving out and how Im still at home and everyone else and their mother is out on their own in their own place. I consider myself to be on my own just not in my own place and for my own sanity I HAVE TO GO!

I love my mom and a big part of me doesnt want to leave knowing she is alone ya know? I mean thats natural for any child to feel about their parent. I know she wants us to be with her forever and ever and just wants me to be happy but I want her to be happy too! If I find a big enough place with like a back house or a house next store Im SOOOO making her move. My goal is to save enough money to move out in less than a year from now. Jordyn will be starting 5th grade this year and will be in her last year of elementary school, O-M-G I cannot believe she is that old and is on her way to jr high!! OMG where is the throw up bucket...Im gagging as we speak! (containing self........NOW). Focus Shamika! Okay so I have less than 1 year to find somewhere because I REFUSE to let her go to Hawthorne Middle School...I REFUSE! Im sure its an okay school but okay isnt good enough. My angel face is one smart cookie (like her mother..lol) and she needs to be in a school that will help her excel and give her the facility to succeed.

I feel as if Im the only one with this problem yet I know I cant be, I just cant. It depresses me to think that I will never move out because I never have any mula left over to save. I can afford to be on my own easily but cant seem to save the money to actually move, like security, moving expenses, etc. Im also soo damn picky about where we would live that I have anxiety about it. Im soo indecisive about where to live and its stupid because its not like where I live next will be my final destination as far as that is concerned. So I ask you all, those who have moved out, do you have any advice, suggestions, recommendations, gripes, concerns, anything!?!?! Its not like its rocket science, this I know but is there something that Im missing here? Will I be 50 still at home unable to decorate my childs room because my mom wont let me?? ha ha ha ha ha ha Ohhhhhhh the joy!

Maybe this was just a rant and your job is to just read it and feel glad that this isnt you..or maybe you are the landlord of an awesome house for rent and will allow me to pay for my security deposit in payments...lol.

Wishful thinking always gets me by......

Another Prom Look ... yes...ANOTHER PROM LOOK

Checking to see if her lipgloss is POPPIN

My assistant working diligently..lol

Aside from hair all in her face (from the fan we had going) she's GAWJUS!

This is from her test run. The makeup is slightly different for the final results but it still turned out fantasmic!

Always gotta take a pic with my "client" ha ha ha

So I was flattered when I was approached to do Kayla's prom makeup. She decided to go to prom like...HELLA late and needed someone to fix her up. Okay so I was asked cuz Im cool and awesome or because Im free, hmmm now that I think of it...DAG NABBIT! ha ha ha So anyhoo, I did a trial run at Kayla's request because she's anal and has every right to be. Miss "hella late" decided to go to prom, buy a dress, and get a makeup and hair test run done in 3 days...phew! Here are some pics of our awesomeness. Big props to my assistant Kat (lol) for curling Kayla's hair while I went to work, in the end she turned out GAWJUS, even more than she already is!


p.s. Im really upset because this paragraph should be at the top of the pics and not the bottom...stupid blogspot...

I Don't See Nothing Wrong - Drew Deezy & Thai featuring Bobby Valentino ...

Gotta have this song on repeat in da car! Love this song, makes me wanna MOOOOOVEEE!

"Field Of Greens" | MAC Cosmetics

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